Sometimes I just feel like screaming at the top of my lungs bearing out all my emotions and showing the world what I really feel about everything. I want to show that I don't give a crap about your petty little problems that doesn't make any difference to anyone what so ever. I wonder why people just for one second can't stop thinking about all these insignificant things. For example something you call "love" at the age of like, 16. Come on, we're still kids, why can't people just realize, embrace and enjoy that! Live like a 16 year old while you still can, you'll come to that time when you really have worry about things that are unnecessary for you to care about now. I want to try and talk some reason in to people so they can try to see the big picture here. Our world is collapsing right in front of us and we're not even doing anything about it! And all you people can do is bitch and moan about things that don't even matter!

And then I realize.. It doesn't matter if I scream and shout, it doesn't matter if I try to talk some sense in to people. We're all humans, it's in our nature to complain about small things like when someone we like doesn't like us back, or when we're all out of our favorite nail polish, or when we fight with our parents and need to complain about how hard they are on us. I mean, that's life. Even if we do care about what's happening with the rest of the world, we're always going to have our own little problems that we have to complain about just so we can go on with our day with a little less weight on our shoulders. You can't blame someone for having emotions, everybody has their moments where they feel down about something, even if it's just your favorite sweater being too small, it's still something you're a bit sad about, and that's ok. When I feel down I don't feel bad about it because  I know I still care about important things, and that I do what I can to make the world as good  of a place that I can.

When I came here I was given an opportunity from my parents and from god. They gave me the opportunity to make something out of myself. They gave me a chance that I know I wouldn't have had if I hadn't come here. Where I come from, children my age would kill to have the life I have and I'm ashamed to say I sometimes take what I have for granted.. But there is one thing that I do know, I'm not going to waste the chance that I have and not do anything with my life. I'm going to make something out of myself and not waste any time in the process!

I believe in myself, I know I'm going to make it.

/Akar "kuurdiie" Kadiri - 25/4-08